Why don’t anyone think like me?

Oh………. Why does my life have to be such a mess? Whoa hold on my life is not a mess; I’m just messed up because of my messy friends who always get into  trouble with the Capulet's. Why can’t  I stop all the trouble on time? My friend Mercutio died from that blady Tybalt’s hands. He is a sinner for killing people for no reason. For the anger of Mercutio’s death Romeo my cousin killed Tybalt like a dog which he had  it coming. But I’m worried because the Prince banished Romeo from the city of Verona as a punishment for the murder of Tybalt. In middle of everything I still do not get one thing, which is, why didn’t Romeo fight with Tybalt in the beginning? If Romeo had fought Tybalt in the first place Mercutio wouldn’t have died today. Why did Romeo back down and gave a stupid speech of love to Tybalt? What the hell is wrong with Romeo? Hm.. Love I hate that word because that word does not exist among the Mantagues and the Capulet's. Instead of love what ends up happening is more fights and deaths. God I am sick of this, I am losing all my best friends whom I have ever had. Please help me to find a solution for everything. I lost Mercutio, and I can’t lose Romeo too. But how can I help him when he is banished from Verona and have no contact of anyway. According to prince’s perception I too think the banishment is the best thing what has happen to Romeo because it is the best way for him to stay out trouble. But what bothers me the most is, Romeo is hiding something huge from all of us and he is suffering too. The question is what is it?